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Insecurities.
« on: June 25, 2013, 11:32 pm »
My biggest would probably be my voice, the way I come off to people (bad/good, if I say the right thing, basically how I present myself) the way I look, blah blah blah.
What are yall's biggest insecurities?
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Re: Insecurities.
« Reply #1 on: June 25, 2013, 11:39 pm »
that im black
 

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Re: Insecurities.
« Reply #2 on: June 25, 2013, 11:40 pm »
Heck everything lol.
 

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« Reply #3 on: June 25, 2013, 11:42 pm »
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Re: Insecurities.
« Reply #4 on: June 25, 2013, 11:42 pm »
My very existance.
 

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« Reply #5 on: June 25, 2013, 11:45 pm »
;n; a lot
 

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« Reply #6 on: June 25, 2013, 11:46 pm »
If I, or someone else, ever wrote a biography about me, the whole book would be about my insecurities lol.
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« Reply #7 on: June 25, 2013, 11:49 pm »
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« Reply #8 on: June 25, 2013, 11:55 pm »
my schizophrenia. i've been able to handle it as well as I can, but I still cant go anywhere without talking to things that arent there and doing random things that no one understands.

being black. I live in a city with mainly black people now, but i used to live in a redneck town and was scared all the time lol

stupid. I've never done well in school, I've always either talked to myself or just sort of stop functioning while i was at school and dont know splode. I dont want people to ask me questions in public and make a fool out of me.
 

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Re: Insecurities.
« Reply #9 on: June 26, 2013, 12:07 am »
Ah ok, I'll open up a little.

I've had trichotillomania ever since I can remember. It's something I've struggled with my whole life. I've been made fun of for having bald spots. I'm scared of getting hair cuts because that's what would reveal my bald spots and get rid of my calming mechanism.

I'm insecure about my trichotillomania and my bald spots that I had before.
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« Reply #10 on: June 26, 2013, 12:10 am »
  71 Use ← → keys to    The second map pack for Call Of Duty: Black Ops II features mobsters vs. zombies and a fight on a Hollywood backlot, but is it worth downloading?
 Call Of Duty: Black Ops II – Uprising review – Mob of the Dead height=365Call Of Duty: Black Ops II – Uprising (360) – it’s only a model It’s around this time of year that you start to get the first clues as to what the new Call Of Duty is going to be. If not from an official source then from one of the many inevitable leaks (the current rumour is that it’s a side-story in the Modern Warfare timeline). Things do start to get complicated when a new console launch is due though and it’s unclear whether the new game will be designed primarily for the current or next gen.
In the meantime though there’s still last year’s game to support, with Activision planning four map packs in total – of which this is the second. The first one, Revolution, was the exact opposite of what its name implied but it was a decent download anyway, with no outright stinkers amongst the five maps.
Revolution also threw in a new weapon and a new Zombies game mode, but there are no such extras in Uprising. Instead it’s spent the extra money on another celebrity-filled Zombies map, called Mob of the Dead.
Call Of Duty has done this before, with the Call of the Dead map for the original Black Ops that featured the likes of George A. Romero and Sarah Michelle Gellar. This time though it’s mobsters that are taking on the undead, with Ray Liotta, Michael Madsen, Chazz Palminteri (Sonny from A Bronx Tale), and Joe Pantoliano (Ralph from The Sopranos).
The map is set on Alcatraz, as the quartet of aging actors (playing actual characters this time, not themselves) try to get to a homemade aircraft on the roof, that they were planning to escape with even before the zombies turned up. Like the existing Black Ops II maps it’s filled with obscurely hidden salvage needed to make new weapons and equipment before you can progress, which drastically limits the game’s accessibility to new players.
That’s been a problem with the Black Ops II version of Zombies since the start, and as the game mode gets ever more complicated it feels increasingly bloated and in need of a complete reboot. It’s always seemed just a few degrees off, but Treyarch has still never managed to turn Zombies into the classic it should be.
As a case in point there are actually two fairly substantial new features for Mob of the Dead, with the first being the fact that you don’t die straight away anymore but instead get to float around as a ghost. Despite your incorporeal form you can still kill zombies, and even charge machines, but you don’t get any points for doing so, which adds a clever natural balance.
The other extra is a demon portal that you can throw zombies into in exchange for a new melee weapon. They’re welcome new extras but they don’t help at all to address the game’s repetitive nature and poor pacing, but that’s probably too much to hope from a single map.
We’re not sure what proportion of people buy these map packs for Zombies and which for normal multiplayer but the four standard maps are an unusually gimmicky bunch this time. Whether that’s a positive or negative depends on how seriously you take your Call Of Duty, but there’s been a clear attempt to make sure they’re not set in just another war-torn Middle Eastern town.
Studio is a case in point. It’s actually a remake of a Firing Range from the first Black Ops, which was set on… a firing range. Here though, even though the layout is more or less the same, the setting is a Hollywood backlot, one that takes in everything from a Western, to a medieval castle, a Jurassic Park knock-off, and a War of the Worlds style alien invasion.
This isn’t just a series of fun visual gimmicks because although everything looks like it’s real much of it is made of wood and provides almost zero cover, even if it does look like a real castle from the right angle. What’s also great is the force perspective walls in actually very small rooms, and the decoys moving around outside and which sometimes actually are hiding real enemies.
Studio is a great mix of the purposefully absurd and the tactically interesting, and Magma tries the same trick with only slightly less success. It’s set in a Japanese town being ravaged by an erupting volcano, but the lava doesn’t really move much and it’s actually the static design of endless dead-ends and climbable obstacles that’s the biggest problem. We found it more fun on paper than in practise, but it’s an interesting idea and both looks and feels completely different to just about every other Call Of Duty map.
Vertigo is more traditional but it too has a gimmick, albeit one that’s been used before. Set atop a skyscraper falling off the narrow beams and walkways is extremely easy, and naturally deflects your attention from where you’re shooting to where you’re moving. It is very similar to Overwatch from Modern Warfare 3 though, with the only major difference being you can jump from one level to another.
Whether Encore counts as having a gimmick again depends on how seriously you want to take things, as although there’s no special features the whole map is set in an (empty) open air rock concert in London. Taking control of the stage is a prime tactical goal and as silly as it may seem at times it’s actually a very cleverly designed and interested set-up.
We know it’s de rigueur nowadays to pretend you hate Call Of Duty but we’re really struggling to find anything very negative to say about this map pack. We didn’t think too much of Vertigo or Mob of the Dead, but they’re certainly not bad maps and Studio and Encore are definitely very good ones.
Five maps is still expensive for the asking price but other than that this is definitely one of the better downloads for the series, and curse us for fools but we’re intrigued to know what will be next.
In Short: The usual mix of the mundane, the inspired, and the not quite fully-formed, but at least two of the five maps are minor classics.
Pros: Studio is a fantastic remake and Encore is a great deal of fun. Magma and Mob of the Dead aren’t bad either, although not on the same level.
Cons: Vertigo is much too similar to Overwatch and not much fun anyway. Zombies is still staggering under the weight of its own legacy and desperately needs a reboot.
Score: 7/10
Formats: Xbox 360 (reviewed), PlayStation 3, Wii U, and PC
 Price: 1,200 Microsoft Points/£10.28
 Publisher: Activision
 Developer: Treyarch
 Release Date: 16th January 2013 (non-360 TBC)
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Re: Insecurities.
« Reply #11 on: June 26, 2013, 12:11 am »
Wait, what are we on? xD
 

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« Reply #12 on: June 26, 2013, 12:13 am »
[what looks like a copied review on call of duty or some splode]
what does that have to do with this?
 

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Re: Insecurities.
« Reply #13 on: June 26, 2013, 12:14 am »
@ody
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« Reply #14 on: June 26, 2013, 12:17 am »
ARE YOU PISSED BECAUSE OF WHAT I DID
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« Reply #15 on: June 26, 2013, 12:25 am »
YEAH YOU LEFT WITHOUT ME
ALL I SAID ON TINY WAS A NURSERY SONG(with a few tweaks) AND Y'ALL JUST LEFT >.>


 

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« Reply #16 on: June 26, 2013, 12:45 am »
My height, weight and strength: In school, I get picked on by my height and weight. I`m very skinny and short, even my friend picked on me before, saying "You are so weak, I can snap you like a twig". I also been picked on about my body as well, which is disturbing what they talk about. I also am usually picked last or near last in P.E. for sports because they know i`m not very strong or athletic. I do hold a lot of energy though. Gir;ls at school call me "Fun sized" though because of how small I am.

My personality and intelligence: This is something i`m highly sensitive to. I worry that I don't fit in, i`m not social either. I`m mainly quiet, and don't talk much, but in 8th grade, I was liked by most people, even though I could act like an ass to some people, they still liked me and laughed. I once said to a girl with a bun in her hair, "That looks like an alien space craft that has landed on a forest filled planet". I didn't even try to socialized, most people walked up to me and said, "Hey, that's an awesome drawing" or "Hey, your cute". People I didn't know knew my name for some reason. I am also considered smart by most people, especially one of my friends who is very similar to me, we both see most kids as... well, not very bright. It's hard to fit in, and we both get severe anxiety attacks, he is worse off than I am though. Then there is a crowd of kids who really think i`m an idiot and think i`m insane. That really throws me off afterwards, affecting my mood and affects my self esteem, which I barely have, well, to my belief.

I`m very insecure, I worry about everything, I think all the time that people will find what I say stupid or annoying. It's something that has been around for a while. I hang out on Sploder because I feel as if I fit in. I can go on and on with my insecurities, but I really don't feel like discussing it all.


 

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« Reply #17 on: June 26, 2013, 12:48 am »
My biggest contradiction: My lack of confidence. Pride can lead to overconfidence, but actually, I have almost no confidence at all when it comes to work.

The only main reason I'm so prideful is because of my lack of strength or charm. So I have to fill in with agility and intelligence. And I have a habit of paying attention to only those.
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« Reply #18 on: June 26, 2013, 12:52 am »
My height, weight and strength: In school, I get picked on by my height and weight. I`m very skinny and short, even my friend picked on me before, saying "You are so weak, I can snap you like a twig". I also been picked on about my body as well, which is disturbing what they talk about. I also am usually picked last or near last in P.E. for sports because they know i`m not very strong or athletic. I do hold a lot of energy though. Gir;ls at school call me "Fun sized" though because of how small I am.

My personality and intelligence: This is something i`m highly sensitive to. I worry that I don't fit in, i`m not social either. I`m mainly quiet, and don't talk much, but in 8th grade, I was liked by most people, even though I could act like an ass to some people, they still liked me and laughed. I once said to a girl with a bun in her hair, "That looks like an alien space craft that has landed on a forest filled planet". I didn't even try to socialized, most people walked up to me and said, "Hey, that's an awesome drawing" or "Hey, your cute". People I didn't know knew my name for some reason. I am also considered smart by most people, especially one of my friends who is very similar to me, we both see most kids as... well, not very bright. It's hard to fit in, and we both get severe anxiety attacks, he is worse off than I am though. Then there is a crowd of kids who really think i`m an idiot and think i`m insane. That really throws me off afterwards, affecting my mood and affects my self esteem, which I barely have, well, to my belief.

I`m very insecure, I worry about everything, I think all the time that people will find what I say stupid or annoying. It's something that has been around for a while. I hang out on Sploder because I feel as if I fit in. I can go on and on with my insecurities, but I really don't feel like discussing it all.
What does your first name start with?
 

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« Reply #19 on: June 26, 2013, 12:57 am »
What does your first name start with?
William Salazar The 3rd

I thought you would know it by now. It's Aaron. :/


 

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« Reply #20 on: June 26, 2013, 01:00 am »
I have problems.;/
Whenever I see a blonde or black or brown haired, good looking girl around the teenage age and my age or a bit younger, I get socially attracted so easily. It makes me love them on first sight.
I JUST WANT to go near them.
 

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« Reply #21 on: June 26, 2013, 01:01 am »
I have problems.;/
Whenever I see a blonde or black or brown haired, good looking girl around the teenage age and my age or a bit younger, I get socially attracted so easily. It makes me love them on first sight.
I JUST WANT to go near them.
I`m mainly attracted to blondes and red haired girls. But most I find, well, um... Well let's just say I dated a blonde and it was probably the biggest mistake of my life.


 

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« Reply #22 on: June 26, 2013, 01:02 am »
I`m mainly attracted to blondes and red haired girls. But most I find, well, um... Well let's just say I dated a blonde and it was probably the biggest mistake of my life.

You did? You lucky.. (also I'm attracted to red hairs hoohoohee),

but seriously,  how did you get her?
 

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« Reply #23 on: June 26, 2013, 01:06 am »
William Salazar The 3rd

I thought you would know it by now. It's Aaron. :/
Oh. You remind me of one of my old friends.
 

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« Reply #24 on: June 26, 2013, 01:06 am »
Hmmmm
 

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« Reply #25 on: June 26, 2013, 01:13 am »
You did? You lucky.. (also I'm attracted to red hairs hoohoohee),

but seriously,  how did you get her?
Well, I told my friend I liked her, and we hung out together a lot with my friend around, then it started to get obvious that we both liked each other, then we decided to date. Never doing that again. I don't want to date for a while now. Wasn't a very good experience. If you like someone though, hang out with them, or get a friend to help out.


 

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« Reply #26 on: June 26, 2013, 01:14 am »
Lol ok. But I'm internet dating FFK.
 

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« Reply #27 on: June 26, 2013, 01:17 am »
Lol ok. But I'm internet dating FFK.
I'm pretty sure she's making fun of you.
 

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« Reply #28 on: June 26, 2013, 01:19 am »
I'm pretty sure she's making fun of you.

She isn;t.

She loves me.
I can see it in her eyes.
She's young.

I love her.
Hot, pretty, cute.
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« Reply #29 on: June 26, 2013, 01:30 am »
I always feel horrible about myself because of the way I hurt everybody.


About a year ago, I dated one of my best friends named Briana. The first couple of weeks everything went fine and dandy, then on the 4th week she broke up with me. About a week laterm I heard around school that I abused briana. I realized I ruffhoused, but I never meant to hurt her. Ever since then we haven't really talked, and I've felt horrible about it.
I always get told by my "friends" and other people that I'm an splode because I'm too ruff with everybody. I admit I am, but I always feel horrible about hurting somebody when I realize I am. I mean, I had a knife pulled on me by my best friend (although that was seriously a bad idea because I kicked his ass (lightly, I didn't wanna break anything) for that because he was threatining my life, and I didn't feel bad because I think that's one time I wasn't totally wrong on that). And I have anger issues, I punched through my window, I get pissed at little things, and I just just don't fell happy most of the time. I don't want to be strong and tall anymore, I wanna be weak and short so I stop hurting people. The only excuse I can give is that my older brother abused me up to 12, which was only one year ago. He stopped and is making it up to me (even though I already forgave him).

Can anybody help me control my power and anger issues?